Thanksgiving?
This post is inspired, I suppose that’s too strong a word, by a post by Exception at The Exception, a song she referred to in her post on Friday, “Forever and Ever Amen” by Randy Travis and a post she did today about Thanksgiving as a “true,” non-commercial holiday. Family, friends, food, you know.
Well with all that and my current down mood, I guess this is my obligatory Thanksgiving post. For the uplifting version read Tryptophan and Thanksgiving from last year.
Assuming you read the link, I’m not feeling like that this year. A friend of mine lost his job a couple of weeks ago. A blogging friend died last week at a relatively early age. Political happenings, locally, nationally and globally suck the big one. To add insult to injury, it’s supposed to be cold at Thanksgiving. The high, for here, is a bit chilly as predicted, 55˚.
So, thanksgiving.
At this point, I planned to turn this around and point out all there is to be thankful for. There’s a lot of it I’m sure. Heartwarming, schmaltzy stuff. (Word doesn’t know how to spell Americanized Yiddish. There at least a small bit of humor.)
At this point, I’m taking a break in writing, something I’ve never done before in a post. I’ve always been able to start, wander and end, making a small point. The wandering and the end, much less the point, are eluding me.
To be continued…
5 comments:
Dave, I'm so sorry you are feeling down this year. I know how it goes. I hope you have a happy Thanksgiving and that things start to look up for you.
I'm jealous about the temperature, I hope its cold here.
You know, I can think of a kazillion things for which I am thankful -very thankful - and yet, this year, I am just not in a Thanksgiving mode with respect to the day, the traditional meal, that aspect of the holiday. Thursday will involve dinner here with my son-in-law's father and his sister but not my son and older daughter and her family. (Son will be on the road by the looks of things and older daughter works midnight shift Wednesday and Thursday nights, so that puts a crimp. The fact I am not speaking to my SIL's sister is added fuel for the downside to ya know. It's been a peaceful two months since my "Weary" post in which I took her on though and for that, I was thankful, until now, knowing I will have to "entertain" and feed her. Add to that the death last week of my blogger buddy (are we referring to the same loss there?) and I just feel very empty right now. And I really don't feel up to the work of doing two big turkey dinners in less than a week's time either due to work-necessitated absence of the two older kids. Just not a good time right now I guess all of which comes together to make me feel I am an unthankful old biddy, which I really am not, but yet, yes I am. And, so I shall remain for a while yet apparently.
You know, I can think of a kazillion things for which I am thankful -very thankful - and yet, this year, I am just not in a Thanksgiving mode with respect to the day, the traditional meal, that aspect of the holiday. Thursday will involve dinner here with my son-in-law's father and his sister but not my son and older daughter and her family. (Son will be on the road by the looks of things and older daughter works midnight shift Wednesday and Thursday nights, so that puts a crimp. The fact I am not speaking to my SIL's sister is added fuel for the downside to ya know. It's been a peaceful two months since my "Weary" post in which I took her on though and for that, I was thankful, until now, knowing I will have to "entertain" and feed her. Add to that the death last week of my blogger buddy (are we referring to the same loss there?) and I just feel very empty right now. And I really don't feel up to the work of doing two big turkey dinners in less than a week's time either due to work-necessitated absence of the two older kids. Just not a good time right now I guess all of which comes together to make me feel I am an unthankful old biddy, which I really am not, but yet, yes I am. And, so I shall remain for a while yet apparently.
I will be serving time at my triennial "Holiday Feast with the Family" which is part of my work release program. Or something. We're supposed to be prepared to tell the whole family what / who we are particularly thankful for. Which is the kind of thing I prefer to keep as a private matter between thems what I am thankful for and me.
I am considering starting drinking again -- if only for the one day.
It is supposed to be rainy with a high of 60 or so, which is unusually warm for Thanksgiving round these parts.
I wish I could tell you that it will all be okay in a way that would be convincing, which is what I really do believe. It will all be okay. Eventually.
Sometimes it is truly hard to find the good or the gems for which we are thankful or that give us that warm feeling that we are "supposed" to have on this holiday. The reality is, it isn't about doing it tomorrow or any specific day - it is more about finding that little thing (and it can be very small) that lifts your heart and leaves you thinking "I am thankful for this moment) that is to be cherished.
I like the idea behind Thanksgiving - I dislike (passionately) the stress that comes with it and many other holidays. Given all that my family goes through at Christmas, it is everything I can do to find that "moment" which lifts my heart and helps me get through it all.
I do hope that you can find a little thing to lift your heart in the near future.
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